Dinner Party

It was supposed to be a decent dinner with crabs, prawns, a few good laughs, and a couple of beers. Don't we look decent here? Of course, that is before the drinking starts.

Look at the crabs, ain't it scrumptious?

Well, with my dear Jean around, the night is never over without getting drunk. So we went back to my place with a few other friends and basically, started drinking. This time around, we were more creative with our drinks so we slapped in the pictionary game. Sounds lame, but the amount of laughs we got was unforgivable. How could two circles and a small one in between the two represents a motorcycle? Boy, I do salute the guy who managed to guess that.

Two more friends joined us later, and more booze followed. More ridiculous pictionary game. The night took a turn when the losing team needs to cross-dress. (It has already been a culture at my place that all the guys that are at my place for the first time will have to cross-dress). So, needless to say, it was hilarious, with cross-dresserS and high on booze, it was a fun night.

Don't ask me for the photos of the later part of the night. If I put it up here, I might risk this blog being closed down. Use your imagination.

Oh by the way, the two guys at the dinner table photo, they were not the ones who crossed-dress. It was the other two that came later, just in case your imagination run wild. Haha...

Nelson Demille's Wildfire

Interested about conspiracy theory?This is a good read. It's the fourth book in the John Corey series, and it's still good.

Sadness

Maybe I am born a sad person. Maybe I'm just plain too hard to please. Regardless of the situations, the circumstances, I can never be happy (at least, not for long).

I thought I could be happy doing this, but I am not.
I thought I could be happy doing that, but I am not.
I thought I could be happy not doing anything, but I am not.
I thought I could be happy doing everything, but I am not.

What is wrong with me? Why do I feel sad no matter what? Why do I feel down ALL the time? There must be a huge problem somewhere that I don't know about.

I remember I posted something regarding 'only fools can be happy with little things.' And I remember saying that I'd rather be a fool.

Today, I'd say the same thing over again. I'd rather be a fool if I can be happy. I would give up everything just to have the ability to laugh at little things. To laugh at mistakes. To laugh at silliness. To laugh at everything around me. To stop pretending high and mighty. To crush down my stupid pride and ego. To be able to feel love. To be free.

I also remember praying really hard for my heart to stop feeling. My prayer is half answered. I stop feeling happiness, but the sadness is holding a prominent place in my heart.

It's not as though my world is crumbling down around me. In fact, it is actually moving upwards. I should be feeling happy about it, but I am not.

I used to have a phobia of being alone. Of having meals alone. Of going out shopping on my own. Of not having anyone to talk to. So I strived at conquering this fear, with the saying 'you don't have to be lonely being alone, you might be lonely when you're in a crowd' held close to my heart. And I succeeded, but I was never happy.

Around me, there is always an aura of sadness surrounding me. I will never be happy unless I am able to tear away from the sadness, but will I be able to?

All I want is to be happy, but I do not have the eyes to see the opportunities. Will someone be my eyes?

It's time to let go...

Finally have the time to clear out everything in my room.
Stumbled across a lot achitecture-related books/magazines. For a moment I was tempted to keep it back on the bookshelf, then I tell myself, it's time to let go.
There's no reason for me to keep those anymore. I don't need it anymore, because I am no longer in that field.
Not that I regret that I was once an aspiring designer/architect, whatever you choose to call it, but I realise, it is a dream best forgotten, otherwise I would have a lot of unsatisfaction of my inability to become one.
With a great sigh of relief, I am finally letting this part of my life go. I'm tossing all the books and magazines out of my life.

To my friends that are still going strong in architecture, good luck! And I'm really proud of you guys!

Shrek 3

Feeling down?

Try watching Shrek 3.

Good humour, although the plot was a little disappointing.

If you're all up for a good laugh, go ahead and watch it, but don't expect it to be as good as the previous two.

Won't spoil your fun by telling the whole story here. Go watch it and drop a comment here!

Cairo

Finally had some time to update my travels.

I went to cairo (egypt) beginning of last month, the weather was just nice, cooling for a day trip on the desert.

As usual, being my first time there, I was excited to do all the touristy stuff. So a friend and I decided to take a day tour to the pyramids (sphinx) and a trip down to the local museum.

Along the way to the pyramids, we saw buildings that are half built. Apparently it is a family house, and as the need for more room increase, they will build another floor on top of the existing floors. Of course, when they have the extra cash as well. Quite an interesting way of construction, but it was a sore-eye to anyone that is trained architecturally.












The pyramids are wonderful. You can't imagine the magnificence of it unless you're standing right next to one. I always thought that the pyramids are one of those things that I can only see on national geographic or on posters. Never really given it a thought that I would be able to stand next to one. Oh, did I mention that the tour around the pyramids was done on a camel's back? Lovely experience.



The desert POLICEMAN... cool... imagine running around desert chasing criminal with a camel.


My camel and his pyramids on his head..

At the local museum, I was mesmerized by the mummies. I mean, looking at it on the tv is one thing, staring at it behind the protective glass casing is another. I was kinda spooked at the end of the trip. I mean, there is a body there. A REAL ONE. It's just like a tour to the graveyard, just that you see the coffin and the body (some of it). It's just as well that they don't allow photography.



On my second day in Cairo, we went to the flea-market. It was a colorful experience, to put it correctly. But I was very wary of the over-friendly shop keepers that seemed to be excited to see an Asian girl walking around without an escort. Apart from that, it's about the same as walking down Petaling Street in KL, minus the dirt and dust.




To end our lovely trip in Cairo, we went for a wonderful cruise along Nile River. Longest river in the world right? I'm not too sure. There was a performer who can spin and spin and spin for the entire evening without stopping. Impressed. I will try to upload the video once I figure out how to do it.

Cairo, all in all, a lovely trip. I don't mind going again just to look those magnificent pyramids.

Love Is Not Enough

Love Is Not Enough - A Smart Woman's Guide to Making (& Keeping) Money

This book by Merryn Somerset Webb is really for girls (like me), who has just started working, or who has been working for a few years now, and wonder sometimes, where did all my money go?

A really informative book about managing finances and it did somehow explains why we shop. A good read although most of the information given are UK based, but we can always check the sources in the country we're working in.

Worth a read.

Guys might want to have a look too as it teaches us how to manage finances in a very practical way.