The Biggest Lie

I'm the biggest liar in the face of this earth, and the person I lie to, is myself. Every morning I wake up and I tell myself, everything is good, everything is ok, even when my heart is telling me otherwise.

I have a job that is envied by lots of people. But so what? It's not something I've wanted. It's not who I wanted to be. It's not who I am. But I went on and tell myself that I love this job. I love the travels, the perks and everything about it. I love doing nothing on most of my days. I lied to myself, and the people around me. Deep down, I am trying so hard to conceal who I really am, who I really want to be.

Not that I didn't try to break free. I took a few steps, met a few deadends, and I stopped and whine. Saying things like, heaven is not on my side, why should I force my way through? No matter how hard I try, I'm still going to fall, going to get hurt and disappointed. So why bother at all? Why don't I just wallow in self pity and never get up? That was exactly what I did. I lied to myself.

Mentally I have given up everything of who I used to be. I don't want to turn back now, I lied to myself again and again. My current life is great, it's what I really wanted after all. But do I? Do I really? Yes, I heard myself lying again.

I've failed myself and my dreams over and over again. I shall never pick myself up again.

Mum and dad, I'm trying my best, but I've failed myself as a person. I'm sorry.

MY BLOG- UPDATED

I have been slacking again...

That is why I just posted 4 posts in one day.

There will be more to come.. but at the moment.. I'm just too sleepy to continue.

Enjoy the pictures! :)

Hong Kong

A day after I came back from Seoul, Nard and I went for a short getaway to Hong Kong. It was a fun trip, because I get to go to Disneyland! Ha ha...

=One of the streets of Hong Kong=

Oh, of course, we went to the usual tourist spots, like the Lady's Street, Wong Tai Sin Temple, and the Harbour where you get to see the light-show on the buildings from across the river.

=Wong Tai Sin Temple=

Despite the rumoured Hong Kong Disneyland to be sucky, I find that it is really not that bad after all. Of course, the mainland Chinese cut queues and spits everywhere, and that the Disneyland is very small, but I find the rides entertaining. In fact, with its small size, it is just nice to take all the rides in a day and still not rush from one to the other, unlike those huge Disneylands in Tokyo or LA where you have to rush the whole day to complete all the rides.

=Hong Kong Disneyland=

=On the Disneyland train=

=Anyone wants to get smacked?=

=Mickey=

Oh, and on the final day, paying no attention to my misgivings, Nard went ahead and bought himself three remote control planes. And we have to carry it all the way back. If I remember correctly, the box is almost as tall as me. Goodness, men and their toys.

=SMELLY TOFU!! yum-yum=

That aside, it's a fun trip and it's nice to get away from our chores at home sometimes.

Seoul

Kim Chi anyone?

I happened to be in Seoul the same time as Nard, but we only had enough time to meet for lunch before he leaves for Singapore. But we manage to take a walk nearby the hotel's day market. Fun!

London

I finally got the 'courage' to walk around London's tourists spots. I went to the Salisbury cathedral, Windsor castle, and the Stonehenge in my fourth trip to London. Lovely trip on a lovely trip, except for the part where we were herded from place to place in a rush. Never am I going to take a guided tour!

=Windsor Castle=

=Stonehenge=

=Salisbury Cathedral=

On my fifth trip to London, I went to London's Tower Bridge and Greenwich park. I also visited the Big Ben and took the ride on the world's largest ferris wheel, the London's Eye. The view from the Eye was breathtaking. It's worth its 13.50 pounds fee. Too bad I didn't have a proper camera with me. With my crappy Sony T-5, I took only limited good night shots. But great experience nonetheless! The Greenwich park is one of the main park that shows the Line that splits the east and west, the GMT.

=Tower Bridge=

=Greenwich Park, the GMT line=

=London's Eye=

=Big Ben=